OK. So my mom has cancer. For sure. At least we know it’s still in the early stages. No real harm done. It’s actually good news.

But something I’ve experienced was how people react upon bad news… The first thing almost everybody told me was…”Everything will be all right”… I appreciated their enthusiasm and the fact that they wanted to help. But hearing the same thing over and over and over, you start to get the feeling of doubt. At one stage I told one of my friends : “Don’t tell me that it will be all right, prove it to me.” A bit cynical I know.

But in the end everything will be all right. Maybe not according to what you might want, but rather to what God has planned for you in your life. I fully trust that He will guide us, especially mom, through these times. The best thing to do is to trust and truely believe.

Every Sunday evening at 6 me and the rest of the gr11’s of this year go to church for our weekly dose of Sunday school.

A month ago there was a discussion about heaven. How do we know who is going to heaven and who isn’t? Can we say that a pastor will definately go to heaven? Or that a satanist will definately go to hell???

Take a newborn baby. It’s living. Created by God. And for some reason that newly born baby dies. The Bible says that when we are born, we are born with sin. So where does this baby go to??? Being sinfull from his first breath.

Truth is, we can’t really say for sure. The main reason for this is probably because we don’t necessarily know the backgrounds of these people. Both pastors and satanists. It’s not in our hands to judge.

But I can’t help to wonder…..God says that he loves His children. I believe this with all my heart. So will He really allow someone to go through the gates of hell???

I’n not happy, I’m not sad… I’m not sure how I feel, maybe the right way to say it is that I feel numb.

These last two weeks have been a great strain. Maybe the biggest reason is because I’m not that sure about God anymore. Somehow He feels so far away, even though I know that He is right here with me. I still believe, but with uncertianty…

There might be a chance that my mom has cancer… She’s not stressed about it, I am. The chances that I can get the same cancer is a reality… This stresses me. Why? (The cancer is still in the early stages…so there’s no real need for worry)

School. Monday math test. Teusday netball match. Wednesday netball trails. Thursday- IT (computerstudies) test and netball match and a math task is due. Friday – biology tes and handing in an accounting task.

Tell me what’s going on cause I don’t know anymore…

You’ve probably heard that saying before… And geuss what??? It’s 100% accurate.

Everyday of our lives we face struggles… I mean just think about it, if you dive head first into a struggle with confidence, you’ll most likely overcome that struggle. But go in being afraid, chances are that others will walk right over you…

But how do you get the confidence for taking on these struggles? Trust in God…but that’s easier said than done. How can you trust someone with your life when you can’t even see Him???

Weird question I know, don’t get me wrong, I do believe that God is there for me. It’s just that sometimes you feel….abandoned. Don’t know why, it just happens… I believe it’s a mind change. Not really sure… Suggestions???

Pneumatix (a Christian group of young people) was in town this week. Last night’s topic was sex. I was a bit sceptical to go, but I felt that I really needed to go.

Maybe your reaction at the heading of this post was something like this : “Oh no. Not again..” etc. And I kind of agree. For those people still in school who are forced to take LO as a subject, I hate it when I hear that todays lesson is about sex…

But let’s face it… It’s an epidemic. It’s something huge, even more than we want to think it is. More and more people are engaging in this wonderful thing that God gave us, without knowing what the real meaning of sex is. And the media isn’t exactly helping a lot. I’m going to quote Joe from last night : “Conomize, condomize, be wise…”

How true is this… We get the idea from the media that it’s OK to have sex, just as long as you use protection. Wrong… We must ask ourselves this : What is the TRUE meaning of sex? I don’t have the answer, all I know is that sex is something sacred. Something that should be treasured, and shared only with that ONE special person (in a marriage of course).

Last night someone said that the reason why many people are engaging in sex, is becuase we don’t talk about it. Parents don’t always share the emotional meaning of sex with their children, only the act on it’s own. The church…well…let’s just say that “s” word is totally forbidden. Isn’t sex also supposed to be part of the church? After all, it is a gift from God. So why do the churches say so little about something so huge?? (Cobus, your thoughts?).

Sex is beautiful. It’s something from God. We should stop abusing it. Stop sleeping with someone else every night. Stop seeing it as just a way to repopulate. We should see it for what it is…something sacred that should be treasured by two people who love each other and are bound by marriage.

Sex isn’t a forbidden topic. It’s part of life. Talk about it…