Hey hey

Sorry for being so quiet. Had to learn how to cope without a mom and without internet for a while…

The low-down is this. My mom was diagnosed with cancer, and two weeks ago she went to Vereeniging to get 6 weeks of laser therapy. Now this is my matric year. And she’s missing half of everything…but hey…who am I to complain? She’s still alive and kicking…with a smile on her face all the way

This past holiday I’ve learned a lot. And I mean a lot. I had a boyfriend. He live’s in Welkom. We met on a chatroom on mxit, and in December he boarded the Greyhound (a bus service) and sat for 600km just to come and visit me. I was madly inlove. Got my first smooch and almost lost my virginity.

I’m not going to pretend that I didn’t want to, but there’s nothing more scary than a guy taking of his pants. Some of you might be shocked, especially those of you who know me well. Sorry for taking so long to tell you this. But I just had to figure some things out for myself. And yes, I know I’ve done wrong. And no we didn’t sleep together, although we wanted to. Staying abstinent is one of the hardest things to do, even more so in our modern world. I’m not proud of what almost happened. But I am proud to admit that I had enough courage to stop before it was too late.

Why am I sharing this with you? Because I am a girl who doesn’t have very much experience with the whole relationship thing. I’ve bumped my head time and again (to my friends’ frustrations). But if there’s one thing I have learned, it’s that only through the power of God can you control yourself and your desires. Also that lasting and true relationships need a strong based friendship to kick off something more romantic. The funny thing is that Cobus taught me this – but seeing is believing (for me I geuss).

It feels good to confess. I know that some people will think less of me, but at least my conscience is clean. I’m not writing this to get attetion. I’m writing this because I thought – things like that don’t happen to people like me, only to other people. WRONG!! It can happen to anyone. Don’t be afraid to say no. Stay faithfull to your spouse…even if you don’t even know who he/she is. Believe the stories people tell you of staying abstinent. In the end it will be worth every second.

But that’s a mouth full. Please ask any questions if you want. Leave comments. Even scold me if you want (I think I deserve it), just keep the language clean, okay?

Cheers. Live in love