the depression express…

The following text is an e-mail I have received from a friend, I found just how amazing our creator’s timing is. Always comming exactly when we need Him most. Anyway, here’s the e-mail:

You always hear the usual stories of pennies on the sidewalk being good
luck, gifts from angels, etc. This is the first time I’ve ever heard this
twist on the story. Gives you something to think about.

Several years ago, a friend of mine and her husband were invited to spend
the weekend at the husband’s employer’s home. My friend, Arlene, was
nervous about the weekend. The boss was very wealthy, with a fine home on
the waterway, and cars costing more than her house
The first day and evening went well, and Arlene was delighted to have this
rare glimpse into how the very wealthy live.

The husband’s employer was quite generous as a host, and took them to the
finest restaurants. Arlene knew she would never have the opportunity to
indulge in this kind of extravagance again, so was enjoying herself
immensely.

As the three of them were about to enter an exclusive restaurant that
evening, the boss was walking slightly ahead of Arlene and her husband. He
stopped suddenly, looking down on the pavement for a long, silent moment.

Arlene wondered if she was supposed to pass him. There was nothing on the
ground except a single darkened penny that someone had dropped, and a few
cigarette butts Still silent, the man reached down and picked up the
penny.

He held it up and smiled, then put it in his pocket as if he had found a
great treasure. How absurd! What need did this man have for a single
penny? Why would he even take the time to stop and pick it up?

Throughout dinner, the entire scene nagged at her. Finally, she could
stand it no longer. She casually mentioned that her daughter once had a
coin collection, and asked if the penny he had found had been of some
value.

A smile crept across the man’s face as he reached into his pocket for the
penny and held it out for her to see. She had seen many pennies before!
What was the point of this?

‘Look at it.’ He said. ‘Read what it says.’ She read the words ‘United
States of America’
‘No, not that; read further.’
‘One cent?’ ‘No, keep reading.’
‘In God we Trust?’ ‘Yes!’ ‘And?’
‘And if I trust in God, the name of God is holy, even on a coin.

Whenever I find a coin I see that inscription. It is written on every
single United States coin, but we never seem to notice it! God drops a
message right in front of me telling me to trust Him? Who am I to pass it
by? When I see a coin, I pray, I stop to see if my trust IS in God at that
moment. I pick the coin up as a response to God; that I do trust in Him.
For a short time, at least, I cherish it as if it were gold. I think it is
God’s way of starting a conversation with me. Lucky for me, God is patient
and pennies are plentiful!

When I was out shopping today, I found a penny on the sidewalk. I stopped
and picked it up, and realized that I had been worrying and fretting in my
mind about things I cannot change. I read the words, ‘In God We Trust,’
and had to laugh. Yes, God, I get the message.

It seems that I have been finding an inordinate number of pennies in the
last few months, but then, pennies are plentiful! And, God is patient..
The best mathematical equation I have ever seen:

1 cross
+ 3 nails
——–
4 given
That’s the whole gospel message simply stated. Take 60 seconds give this a
shot!

1. Simply say a small prayer for the person who sent you this, (Father God
bless this person in whatever it is that you know he or she may be needing
this day.)

2. Then send it on to five other people . Within hours five people have
prayed for you, and you caused a multitude of people to pray to God for
other people …..

Thought for the Day:

If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.

If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it.

He sends you flowers every spring.
He sends you a sunrise every morning Face it, friend – He is crazy about you!

Send this to every ‘beautiful person’ you wish to bless..

God didn’t promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without
rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and
light for the way.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

What a week!!!

Just a few more months then I’m done with school. In a way I am excited and sad too, but my topic is about friendship.

Last Friday one of my friends asked me to talk to her uhmm…boyfriend?? Anyway, I agreed to speak with him. The thing is, I kind of had a very rough nigth. The friend I cared most about, whom I wanted to have more than a friendship with, took back his ex girlfriend (which doesn’t like me so much).

So on that night, I was on a stage that I just said things straight forward, not caring who read it or what it could mean other than what I intended it to be. So basically I said some pretty harsh stuff, and then my friend read it.

She was devastated, hurt. I know this, but I also know that what I said was very hurtfull, even if I didn’t mean it in a hurtfull way, she still got hurt, my very close friend. So on Monday, I went to her. Told her how bad I felt for hurting her, for not thinking about what I was saying… She held a grudge against me. I was shattered. I couldn’t believe what I have done. I cried myself to sleep that night.

She ignored me the whole Tuesday and Wednesday at school as well. Here’s the miracle, Wednesday afternoon she came to me, told me that such a minor detail won’t mess up our friendship.

What have I learned?

True friendship can’t be shattered so easily. Forgiveness takes time.

But with all these things happening, I also had a thought. If my friend and I were so hurt by what happened, how does God feel if he sees what is happening to his creations all over the world. How does He feel when someone loses faith in Him?

Does God also cry?

So here’s the thing:

ONe moment your just sitting, there’s absolutely nothing wrong…the next you’re just filled with rage, you just want to brake something and then the next you’re so sad you can’t stop crying

Why does this happen? How can one person be able to make angry, sad, dissapionted and calm again all in a matter of 30minutes?

Ek is nie wat ek was nie

Ek is nie meer wat ek was nie
Ek was nie meer wat ek mors nie
Ek kyk nie na my mense nie
Ek bid nie meer vir my vriende nie
Ek bid nie meer nie…

Is die verlede dalk die hede?
Kan dit ‘n opsie wees?
Was dit dalk dit
wat my verlaat het van gees?

Ek doen wat van my verwag word
staan weekliks in die gebou
maar hoe dit ookal sy
ek voel geen liefde wat my omvou

O here here god my here
wat het tog gebeur?
Ek weet ek kan nog glo, maar…
ek wil nie meer…?

Fatalism: Belief that events are decided by fate; submission to all that happens as inevitable…thats the dictionary description, my own connotation to that word…the path that God has chosen for us.

None of us likes to do something that we don’t want to do right? But in some situations we don’t have a choice…God is running our lives. My Mom didn’t choose to have cancer, I didn’t choose to break my arm and my GrandDad didn’t choose to die…it was all decided by destiny, thus by God

God is our destiny…the other day one of my Mxit contacts (she’s also in my school) sent me a message. Now I wasn’t expecting anything like that at all, we aren’t even that good friends, more like acquientances (excuse spelling). She sent me a Christian message, so it was very unexpected…not that I’m saying she isn’t a Christian, I just didn’t expect it.

Her message to me was: “It doesn’t matter what happens to you! IT doesn’t matter how it happened! Hold on to God and the promises he made to you! God will give you the solution, He will touch you and heal you. He wants to and He will!”

I was shocked after I read this…really I was. I mean, we only go to school together and have a few of the same classes. I don’t personally know this girl, yet she sent me this. I was physically stunned for a few minutes. It’s as if she knew what was troubling me. And I am struggling with my belief…I am!!! So I ask myself: “What the hell just happened?!!”

I realised God was watching me, he doesn’t always come gently I suppose. He likes to stun and awe and shock me maybe that’s how I learn. Considering the person he used to gave me this message.

So now I ask myself, was it destiny or God? The answer…God is destiny…

Think about it

on the 2nd of April, he rested for 9 years

Love you till I die maaitjie

Hey it’s me again

A lot has happened since my last post.

Again I am at the point of breakdown…this arm thing is not working for me. But I’m trying to make the best of it…I try to do everything on my own, but fastening your hair with one hand is a teeny weeny tiny bit difficult. Anyway. The opration was a success and in two weeks time I will have a fully straigthening arm

My ex boyfriend also came into the picture. He invited me on mxit again, after two months…He’s word…”I want you back.”

I still care a hell of a lot about him, but he broke my heart…I would be an idiot to take him back…I suggested a friendship…maybe it will work out…maybe it won’t, only time will tell.

Now I have a question….

Do you believe in true love?

Why am I asking this? I think I’ve found my true love…the one I only want to see happy, even though he wants te be with another, the one who i will wait for till he tells me there’s no hope…the one who makes my heart jump up and down…the one who I want to grow old with…maybe I’m too young to know….but if I wanted a true love, it would be someone like him….so…tell me…

Do you believe in true love?