Seeing as this is a time of huge adaptation in my life, I decided to change my blog a bit.

The girl represents me…standing alone in this whole world.  All the posts represent the experiences, both those that have passed and those that have yet to come.  The extras symbolize every person whose support I have and who I am very thankful to have in my life.  Without you there is no me.

The green adds a different feel to the blog.  Its earthiness reminds me that we all have to eventually turn to dust.  To earth.

Today I let God take full control again.  The driver’s license on my life expired.  I’m through with doing it myself.

Today I am taking God’s taxi.

Today…

I change my life.

Life is strange…

Sometimes you just can’t wait to wake up in the morning and start a new sunny, happy day.  But on other days you just wish that the sun will never rise again.

Today again I realised how cruel life can be.

As you have read in my previous post: I met a new love.  His name was Hein Smith.  He was 21 years old.  On Wednesday 11 February 2009 we met at Hatfield Square.  He was just a random guy who started dancing with me, we could’ve danced all night.  I was so happy the whole weekend but missed him very much since I was at home.  On Monday 16 February I cooked a meal for him.  We spent the whole night talking and laughing and joking…as he tucked me in at 2 am he said to me: “I will never leave your side.”

But today, Wednesday 18 February 2009 at 1:50 pm………..

he died.

For what reason I don’t know.  He was so young, so was our relationship as well, but now it’s over.  Now I fully understand the expression so oftenly used:

It is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

May you rest in peace my gaurdian angel, my love.  I will always cherish your memory.  I will dare to say that I love(d) you…

Elloooo peoples.

Sorry for the silence but had trouble getting internet, but now I’m back.  Woohoo.

But anyway. University is great.  It’s so beautiful and so calm…in no time I will be in a school teaching a class of my very own….

Can’t wait.

But just wanted to say hi to everyone.

So stay safe and have an awesome week.

P.S.  Love is in the air.  But that will be the next post…promise